In the last 10 days since the last post, dealing with day to day life, being a father & husband, paying bills and wondering where all our money goes, how to raise young Godly daughters, and Brians DNF at Cuy100k, put a lot of things into perspective. (I'm sure my wife would tell me that was/is a run on sentence. But hey, I'm an ultra runner... I guess I run long in sentence form as well).
The primary thing is...I shouldn't be complaining about a thing. Retirement accounts look fine, no debt, house with equity, No car payments, I wife who loves me and some good kids. They are all healthy. Or as healthy as teenagers can be. And they support my running. maybe not approve or understand, but support it.
Plus, 6 months ago next week on the 23rd, (3 days before the race) it will be the 6 month mark since knee surgery. That is amazing and worrisome at the same time as that puts a big unknown question mark on how it will hold up on race day. But I was not thrilled when a friend who heard about the injury said "Oh dude, sorry, but you're done!". Huh? "Your running, and playing soccer is done." So as soon as rehab seemed to show that I could handle the impact on the joint, I signed up and started pushing. This helped by giving me a target and a reason to push. In turn that helped dramatically with the recovery, and the mental state of my (life is over feeling). Stupid to write that now, but at the time. Struggled with how to get the physical aggression and angst out if I couldn't play/run.
The mental aspect of the race seems okay at this point. Not too worried. Last year no mental issues at all. WAs gonna die before I quit. I have thought of the.. when it gets tough, I'll quit because I can say I have already done a 100 and don't need to prove this distance anymore. BUT I DO!!! BECAUSE IT'S A STATES QUALIFIER. Simply put I have to finish in under 30 hours. Period.
So.. here we are. 10 days to go. 1 week until I leave for Phx!.
Post from Javelina page about the loops from Facebook.
Mike Trask Translation for the newbie at j100m.
Loop 1 -- Awake and Easy - follow the other 650 ppl.
Loop 2, -- easy but warm. Follow *most* of the other 500 ppl.
Loop 3, -- harder, but 'hey nice sunset', I think this is the right way, ... ya ya.. this is correct! Follow about 20 ppl you can still see hopefully going the same way you are.
Loop 4, -- WTF!... Where is everyone!? Geez its reaaaaallly dark. Is that dot on the horizon the aide station? Why is it way off to the left? Follow that 1 person you can see and hope they are on the same loop. (note thats likely not a person and you are hallucinating).
Loop 5, --- Ohhh ya... I got this. What a sunrise! Wait, I have now seen 2 sunrises since I started this run? That's messed up but really cool in a way. Follow the other cool new friends you made through pain, a 100 miles and experiencing life to the FINISH!!!!!!!
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